i’m not used to feel a failure

or maybe I’ve never tried to feel it

i was laid back, easy going

everything seemed to flow naturally

successes, failures did not bother me

 

except once

 

an immense feeling of disappointment

about my self

 

i put myself in the blame although knew it wasn’t fair to me

the feel of failure, guilt, and despair stormed in

i was hopeless

it wasn’t me

i didn’t want to be me

 

none anymore

 

it’s nothing than a small reminder

from the creator of all

a little pinch

that I need to realise the value of life

and the drama that He has created

with happiness

with wealth

with health

with successes

with mistakes

with fear

with failures

with death